I don't really have any.
So why the post...
Life passes by so fast. Sometimes, it feels like there is all the time in the world, and yet, in a blink of an eye, a month, two months, a year, two years etc. has passed.
My resolution then is...
To simply enjoy each day, to breathe in as much air as I can, to enjoy the feel of raindrops on my face, and let the wind catch my hair, to laugh as much as I can, and share the tears, to lean on those around me and to let them lean on me. To love with my whole heart. To treat all those that I meet with respect and genuiness. To treat everyone with kindness and sincerity. To make the best of each situation, to not complain and to change what I can and accept what I can't. To let go of all that hurts, to let go of all the holds me back. To allow myself to cry when it hurts, to smile at the small things. To take care of myself, physically, emotionally, mentally and spiritually.
To live.
Saturday, December 31, 2005
Monday, December 26, 2005
Tuesday, December 20, 2005
Yesterday morning...
Me: I've thrown up 3 times already since 2 am last night.
On call doctor: You're just nervous about your exam
Me: No, I don't think so
On call doctor: So take some gravol, or I could give you a shot of it.
Me: I'll be tired for my exam though
On call doctor: It will wear off in eight hours
So, I took half the gravol, continued to throw up, and was SOOO drowsy. I spent most of the day praying and asking God to help me be strong for my exam. I couldn't stay awake.
My dad drove me to school and as I walked into Angus to talk to my instructor, I prayed. And God gave me a special Christmas gift, after explaining the situation, my instructor kindly and graciously offered to let me write my exam on Friday morning.
I went to see my regular doctor today. She wrote me a note and expressed that yes, it is more than being nervous (I'll spare ya'll the actual amount of times I umm well looked inside a porcelin bowl). So my diet over the next few days will continue to be broth and bllllllllllllllllllland food. Praise God for the extra time to get better and not have to write an exam drugged up on half a gravol. :)
Me: I've thrown up 3 times already since 2 am last night.
On call doctor: You're just nervous about your exam
Me: No, I don't think so
On call doctor: So take some gravol, or I could give you a shot of it.
Me: I'll be tired for my exam though
On call doctor: It will wear off in eight hours
So, I took half the gravol, continued to throw up, and was SOOO drowsy. I spent most of the day praying and asking God to help me be strong for my exam. I couldn't stay awake.
My dad drove me to school and as I walked into Angus to talk to my instructor, I prayed. And God gave me a special Christmas gift, after explaining the situation, my instructor kindly and graciously offered to let me write my exam on Friday morning.
I went to see my regular doctor today. She wrote me a note and expressed that yes, it is more than being nervous (I'll spare ya'll the actual amount of times I umm well looked inside a porcelin bowl). So my diet over the next few days will continue to be broth and bllllllllllllllllllland food. Praise God for the extra time to get better and not have to write an exam drugged up on half a gravol. :)
Tuesday, December 13, 2005
A conversation...
(After 6:30 mass this past Sunday)
t.: Hi Father.
Father S.: Hi, you look good, you must be all done your exams, you don't look stressed.
(After Father L.'s reminder a few weeks back, I have tried to dress a wee bit nicer for mass, but perhaps that wasn't what Father S. was referring to)
t: Oh, no, I have an exam in a week. (thinking to myself "that I'm not ready for") I just went to mass.
Father: (pleasant response) ********************************************************************************* I
I can't remember the exact words, but that's the gist of the conversation.
Going to mass reminds me of how small I am, of how incapable, of how big God is, of how I am part of His family... I sit there and my blood pressure must drop a few points. The overwhelming sense of calm, kneeling, eyes closed in prayer, with the choir singing songs of praise, surrounded by 600 people, surrounded by a wonderful energy, yet feeling that I am the only one there.... of being able to shut everything out, and yet not. I am reminded of how small I am at other times, but there's something about sitting in His house... It's just different.... After mass, I walk out, and I'm ready for the week ahead, lighthearted, renewed and nourished. I can't explain it... that's all that there is to it.
Simply blessed, and truly thankful. I think of life a year ago when I was finding my faith again... I think of the months that have passed and how much better life is -- difficulty, heartache, happiness and all -- when lived with God.
t.: Hi Father.
Father S.: Hi, you look good, you must be all done your exams, you don't look stressed.
(After Father L.'s reminder a few weeks back, I have tried to dress a wee bit nicer for mass, but perhaps that wasn't what Father S. was referring to)
t: Oh, no, I have an exam in a week. (thinking to myself "that I'm not ready for") I just went to mass.
Father: (pleasant response) ********************************************************************************* I
I can't remember the exact words, but that's the gist of the conversation.
Going to mass reminds me of how small I am, of how incapable, of how big God is, of how I am part of His family... I sit there and my blood pressure must drop a few points. The overwhelming sense of calm, kneeling, eyes closed in prayer, with the choir singing songs of praise, surrounded by 600 people, surrounded by a wonderful energy, yet feeling that I am the only one there.... of being able to shut everything out, and yet not. I am reminded of how small I am at other times, but there's something about sitting in His house... It's just different.... After mass, I walk out, and I'm ready for the week ahead, lighthearted, renewed and nourished. I can't explain it... that's all that there is to it.
Simply blessed, and truly thankful. I think of life a year ago when I was finding my faith again... I think of the months that have passed and how much better life is -- difficulty, heartache, happiness and all -- when lived with God.
Saturday, December 10, 2005
'Tis the season...
Well... I've experienced my first big deadline at work -- two days!! I was given a file on Tuesday and had to have it ready in draft form by Thursday midday (ish)... And, I thought there was only one company, so I wrapped up another near completed file on Tuesday -- only to find out on Wednesday that there are actually TWO companies that had to be completed!! I got it done in time -- though didn't leave my desk at all on Thursday!
Two weeks to CHRISTMAS! WHOHOO!! :D I'm super excited but at the same time, exam in a week -- so everytime someone asks if I'm ready for Christmas the answer is "I have an exam in ___" But as always before an exam, I like to think of what comes after... incentive if you will... or something to remind me that's there's more to life... so here it is....almost in date order... I fully intend on living it up, and also resting the time post exam as it'll be tax season at work come January...
1. 1st Staff Christmas party (that's actually before the exam)
2. Christmas shopping -- a whopping ONE evening--- hehehehee
3. Annual (since grade 8) dinner with my high school group of friends
4. Shopping take two with Cynthia -- friend for 18 years and counting :D -- yes, since grade one!!!
5. Dinner with Ronnie
6. Christmas with the family
7. Victoria with Chelley! WHOHOO! Our second annual trip over to visit Session and Victoria -- only this year we're not staying over. I can't wait!
8. Tracey's birthday dinner
9. Dinner with my big sister (?)
10. Lunch with Ray (err, hopefully! -- I have never made plans with anyone so many times and not had them work out!)
11. Lunch with Sanyee, Rachelle, Negin and Jocelyn
12. Celebrating Dory's birthday! (And yah that I'll get to see you on your actual birthday!)
Oh, and did I mention cleaning my room? ;) And lots of sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep! Ooooh... maybe baking and a haircut -- I've been debating the latter -- to keep it or to cut it... :D
And, amidst all of our excitement and celebration over the Christmas holidays, I hope we will all remember those less fortunate and take time to do something for them too. It doesn't matter how small because if everyone did that something small, it would make something pretty darn big.
Hope ya'll are getting into the spirit of the season, and hope to see ya'll over the Christmas holiday.
Smile lots, eat, laugh, and be merry!
t.
Two weeks to CHRISTMAS! WHOHOO!! :D I'm super excited but at the same time, exam in a week -- so everytime someone asks if I'm ready for Christmas the answer is "I have an exam in ___" But as always before an exam, I like to think of what comes after... incentive if you will... or something to remind me that's there's more to life... so here it is....almost in date order... I fully intend on living it up, and also resting the time post exam as it'll be tax season at work come January...
1. 1st Staff Christmas party (that's actually before the exam)
2. Christmas shopping -- a whopping ONE evening--- hehehehee
3. Annual (since grade 8) dinner with my high school group of friends
4. Shopping take two with Cynthia -- friend for 18 years and counting :D -- yes, since grade one!!!
5. Dinner with Ronnie
6. Christmas with the family
7. Victoria with Chelley! WHOHOO! Our second annual trip over to visit Session and Victoria -- only this year we're not staying over. I can't wait!
8. Tracey's birthday dinner
9. Dinner with my big sister (?)
10. Lunch with Ray (err, hopefully! -- I have never made plans with anyone so many times and not had them work out!)
11. Lunch with Sanyee, Rachelle, Negin and Jocelyn
12. Celebrating Dory's birthday! (And yah that I'll get to see you on your actual birthday!)
Oh, and did I mention cleaning my room? ;) And lots of sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep! Ooooh... maybe baking and a haircut -- I've been debating the latter -- to keep it or to cut it... :D
And, amidst all of our excitement and celebration over the Christmas holidays, I hope we will all remember those less fortunate and take time to do something for them too. It doesn't matter how small because if everyone did that something small, it would make something pretty darn big.
Hope ya'll are getting into the spirit of the season, and hope to see ya'll over the Christmas holiday.
Smile lots, eat, laugh, and be merry!
t.
Saturday, December 03, 2005
Girlfriends
Girlfriends I'm only as strong as the martinis I drink, the hairspray I use, and the girlfriends I have. Here's to you! Why do we only have parties for each other when one of us gets married, pregnant, has a birthday, or retires? What would most of us do without our sisters, confidants, and shopping, lunching and traveling girlfriends? Let's celebrate each other for each other's sake! Pass this on to your girlfriends! If you get this twice or more, you are lucky to have more than one girlfriend. Be happy!
Someone will always be prettier. They will always be smarter. Their house will be bigger. They will drive a better car. Their children will do better in school. And their husband will fix more things around the house. So let it go, and love you and your circumstances. Think about it. The prettiest woman in the world can have hell in her heart. And the most highly favored woman on your job may be unable to have children. And the richest woman you know, she's got the car, the house, the clothes....might be lonely. And the Word says if "I have not Love, I am nothing." So, again, love you. Love who you are. Look in the mirror in the morning and smile and say "I am too blessed to be stressed and too anointed to be disappointed!" "Winners make things happen. Losers let things happen." Be Blessed ladies and pass this on to encourage another woman. "To the world you might be one person, but to one person you just might be the world".
Someone will always be prettier. They will always be smarter. Their house will be bigger. They will drive a better car. Their children will do better in school. And their husband will fix more things around the house. So let it go, and love you and your circumstances. Think about it. The prettiest woman in the world can have hell in her heart. And the most highly favored woman on your job may be unable to have children. And the richest woman you know, she's got the car, the house, the clothes....might be lonely. And the Word says if "I have not Love, I am nothing." So, again, love you. Love who you are. Look in the mirror in the morning and smile and say "I am too blessed to be stressed and too anointed to be disappointed!" "Winners make things happen. Losers let things happen." Be Blessed ladies and pass this on to encourage another woman. "To the world you might be one person, but to one person you just might be the world".
2 Corinthians 6:10 NLT
4In everything we do we try to show that we are true ministers of God. We patiently endure troubles and hardships and calamities of every kind. 5We have been beaten, been put in jail, faced angry mobs, worked to exhaustion, endured sleepless nights, and gone without food. 6We have proved ourselves by our purity, our understanding, our patience, our kindness, our sincere love, and the power of the Holy Spirit.[a] 7We have faithfully preached the truth. God's power has been working in us. We have righteousness as our weapon, both to attack and to defend ourselves. 8We serve God whether people honor us or despise us, whether they slander us or praise us. We are honest, but they call us impostors. 9We are well known, but we are treated as unknown. We live close to death, but here we are, still alive. We have been beaten within an inch of our lives. 10Our hearts ache, but we always have joy. We are poor, but we give spiritual riches to others. We own nothing, and yet we have everything.
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